Saturday, July 16, 2011

Final Year of College on the Rise

Well it is almost here: my last year of college getting my Bachelor's Degree. I must say that I am pretty proud of myself in all that I have accomplished in the past 4 years so far. I am completely content and happy with my life thus far. No more D-bag guys in my life, getting amazing grades, losing weight like I want, in an apartment I ACTUALLY like, and getting along with my family wonderfully.

I finally have a boyfriend whom I have been with for almost 4 months now. Granted the circumstances are rather interesting, but I am happy needless to say. The only requirement on my mental checklist he doesn't meet is that he has gone to jail. Yes I know probably a pretty big one that I should consider, but he has learned his lesson and he knows that if he hasn't and goes back that I am gone. But he treats me with the utmost respect and treats me like a Queen. He's emotionally, physically and mentally connective with me and I haven't felt this complete in....well....ever. Life is going pretty good for me currently. No complaints thus far. :-)

Monday, February 7, 2011

Absentee Father...

Here I sit on February 7th, 2011. Day after the superbowl. Pittsburgh Steelers lost 31 - 25 against the Green Bay Packers. Woop-de-doo. Haha. I am having a hard time dealing with my long lost father. He came to visit but it was incredibly awkward. He had been gone for 14 years and just appeared back in my life out of the blue. I was glad when he left.

We had an issue yesterday when he said that he was trying to help me along my weight loss thing. He was rather harsh about it and I already beat myself up enough about it. Serena emailed him stating he is the "absentee" father and advice regarding my most sensitive insecurity is NOT credible coming from him. I emailed him as well stating that I was truly upset and very angry at him for what he said. I understand he was just trying to give me fatherly advice, but as I said it is not credible and worth anything positive to me due to him 14 year absence.

*shrug* I need to express my feelings better with him. I kind of just fake it with him. I know he is a recovering alcoholic and he can be very sensitive but I am going to be selfish regarding this subject. He needs to be careful as to what advice he is going to give me.